because i just feel like singing this to someone

NEVER LET HER SLIP AWAY

I talked to my baby on the telephone
Long distance
I never would've guessed
I could miss someone so bad
I really only met her 'bout a week ago
But it doesn't seem to matter to my heart
I know that I love her
I'm hoping that I never recover
'Cause she's good for me
And it would really make me happy
To never let her slip away

I feel like a kid with a teenage crush
On a school date
I feel like the lead in "Romeo & Juliet"
I'm a little bit dizzy
I'm a little bit scared
I guess I never felt this much aware
That I'd love her
I'm hoping that I'll never recover
Cause she's good for me
And it would really make me happy
To never let her slip away

I really only met her 'bout a week ago
But it doesn't seem to matter to my heart
I know that I love her
I'm hoping that I never recover
'Cause she's good for me
And it would really make me happy
To never let her slip away

Mmmmmm I love her
I'm hoping that I never recover
'Cause she's good for me
And it would really make me happy
To never let her slip away
Oh I know it's gonna make me happy
To never let her slip away

The One That Got Away...

The Manila Times By:
Mark J. Macapagal


In your life, you’ll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will
always mean something. There’s the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you put on a
pedestal, the one you’re with … and the one that got away. Who is the one that got away? I guess it’s that
person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no
fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn’t fall the right way, I suppose.
I believe in the fact that ending with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the
other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the
matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes
beyond the little niceties of giddy romance. How often have you gone through it without realizing it? When
you’re not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn’t matter who you’re with, it just doesn’t work.
Small problems become big; inconsequentials become deal breakers simply because you’re not ready and it
shows. It’s not that you and the person you’re with are no good; it’s just that it’s not yet right, and little things
become the flashpoint of that fact. Then one day you’re ready. You really are. And when this happens you’ll
be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the
brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it’ll work because you’re ready. It’ll work
because it’s the right time and you’ll make it work. And it’ll make sense, it really will. So that day comes when
you’re finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your
approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you’ve become ready
because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there’s no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you’re
single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn’t matter.
All you know is that you’ve changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think
about. You’ll think about them because you’ll wonder, “What if they were here today?” You’ll wonder, “What
if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?” That’s what the one that got away is. The
biggest “What if?” you’ll have in your life. If you’re married, you’ll just have to accept the fact that the one
that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to
the best of us. But hopefully you’re mature enough to realize that you’re already with the one you’re with and
this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past
it. Sure, you’ll think about him/her every so often, but it’s alright. It’s never nice to live with a “might have
been,” but it happens. Maybe the one that got away is the one who’s already married. In which case it’s the
same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice
little smile to your lips in the future when you’re old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the
case, then it’s different. What do you do if it’s not yet too late? Simple … find him, find her. Because the very
existence of a “the one that got away” means that you’ll always wonder, what if you got this one? Ask him
out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn’t matter if you’ve dropped in from out of nowhere. You’d be
surprised, you just might be “the one that got away” as well for the person who is your “the one that got
away.” You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won’t make a difference. If the timing is finally right,
it’ll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I’m thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be
able to say to someone, “Hey you, you’re the one that almost got away".

Places to visit this holiday season

Ark Avilon Zoo

EnchantedKingdom

Manila Ocean Park

So far, those are the places that I want to go with my family. Since Matthew can appreciate things around him and really likes animals (an exact opposite of me).

Canon A480

i'll have you in my hands soon!!

40 months of lovin'!!! i love you Annjelo!!!=)

Sorry for not giving updates on myself. A lot (as in a lot!!) had happened this past few months and as 2009 ends soon, let me give it a last hurrah!!!! This year was the most tragic year for me. I broke up some family ties, almost gave up the career that i ought to be, started fights, been broken, lost everything when typhoon Ondoy visited the country and eventually resigned from work.

They say that a person's strength is being tested by the challenges and adversities that are thrown his way. And that for sure is the exact statement that has happened to me (and is still happening though). Lord, you always make me feel that throughout everything, you're there at my side and you are continuously leading me to the path which is truly destined for me.

Lord, you let me experienced Ondoy, lost everything in an instant, to let me realize the things that truly matter. Even if I haven't sort of realized it until now, atleast I'm goin' there. You gave us Ondoy because you healed our relationship which was on the brink of separation. You gave me Ondoy because you want me to reconcile with my family and lastly, you gave me Ondoy because you want me to pursue Nursing. You want me to pursue my DREAM.

Lord, I don't know what I did right living in this world but you gave me nothing but the best. When I feel the envy in me, you let me realize that I have far more treasure than anyone can have, You manifest it through Matthew.

Lord. thank you for giving me a gifted child who never ceases to give me strength and inspiration in this world. Lord, thank you for giving me your unconditional love.

Lord, i promise you this time that I will give 100% in everything that i'll do and everybody will realize that i have not forsaken nor disappointed them this time.

Yes Lord, THIS IS IT!!!

just what i needed for my bday=)

Matthew!!! =)

The boy really reminds me of Matthew=) i love you my muffin little one!!!=)

you should remember that...

Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

When in doubt, just take the next small step.

Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch!

Pay off your credit cards every month.

You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.

It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.

It’s OK to let your children see you cry.

Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.

Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.

Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.

It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.

Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion.

Today is special..

Over prepare, then go with the flow.

Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.

The most important sex organ is the brain.

No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’

Always choose life.

Forgive everyone everything.

What other people think of you is none of your business.

Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

Believe in miracles.

God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.

Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.

Your children get only one childhood.

All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s,we’d grab ours back.

Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

The best is yet to come.

No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

Yield.

Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio

Teacher Ash

I was an English Teacher for Koreans for just a week. The training was held at Neung Yule at IBM Plaza, Eastwoood City. Oh boy! I learned a ton and also gained lotsa friends, but too bad, a week was like a minute when you're having fun! I'm back here in Motif! Nothing feels like home. Let's just say, i breathe Indian oxygen...hahahaha! just kidding!!! The people here are more than agents to me. They are my friends, my confidantes and you can say everything!!! I know everybody here. So when I got back, a lot of people became happy (not that I'm so assuming). And also, if there were smiles, there were also grudges felt when the moment they saw me. Lol!!!
But, never mind! Life goes on and people who don't go on with their life will be stuck and will rot with their own ghosts.

I love being back and fabulous!!!=)

A wise man once told me, a smart man learns from his mistakes, but an even smarter man learns from others' mistakes.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

Mark Twain

bookmarked!

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“If you dare nothing, then when the day is over, nothing is all you will have gained.”

From The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman

it's a gummy world!!!!

God doesn't give you the people you want. He gives you the people you need. To hurt you, To love you, To teach you, To break you, To turn you into the person you're supposed to be.

updates

I alredy got Matthew's Dedication and First Bday Pictures but the mb is too big. I couldn't upload all 634 pictures at all. The video will be out soon!

Matthew has no appetite for food. Before, even if he's too full, he wouldn't mind for another spoonful or a bite. It's nakakapanibago! I'm not used to seeing Matthew that way. I hope my baby will be back to his jolly and matakaw self. I miss him already. so much!!! His at Nanay's house right now and Aj and I have to work to support all our needs. I know that God is telling me to sacrifice because we don't get everything that easy. All things must be strived hard and things will eventually fall right to its place. We just have to wait. I learned that just now. I've been talking to my Big Man up there and he quietly gives me advices. Thank you Lord! That's what I really needed all along.

Giving up will never be in my vocabulary. Last night, a problem took a toll on us. Financial problems again! But come to think of it, it's just money, we can earn it anytime and its ephemeral. You cannot hold on to it.

From now on, little by little, even though how lazy I can get, I will browse through my nurse's notes and reviewers. I will pursue my nursing career no matter what.

Finding work nowadays is so hard. That's my only chance to succeed. F*ck all these call centers! I don't wanna waste my time here anymore. I just need this for its monetary benefit. I hate it when I am left with no choice.

Dear Lord, grant me strength and wisdom. Thank you for all of these!=D

when will i get preggy again? (hope not!)lol

the evolution of man..haha!

United as 1

Thank You President Cory Aquino!

where are you Ms, Ash Hopeful?

We just came from Matthew's Pediatrician Dra. Solomon. Instead of doing the consultation at her clinic, we had it at her house instead. Her house is one of the best houses i ever set foot on. With trees, grasses and azalaes, what a cozy treat that was! Dra. Solomon's house was like a house based in Beaufort, North Carolina where the story A Walk To Remember was described. It has a front yard that stretches out farther, cute little dogs, a beautiful porch and a very homey ambience. Imagine that, I was green with envy!

Actually, it's not really the house that made me squint with delight but at her age, I want to accomplish not just that kind of lifestyle, but observing her, she is already contented with her life. She told Aj and I that she is a Christian and her family devotes their time praising the Lord. At 51,, I can see how happy she is with her life.

There is a difference with the word "Contentment" and "Satisfaction". Being satisfied is only a feeling for a short period of time while being contented is forever, plus happiness as i may say.

Right now, I have this feeling that my life is not going on that direction of my dreams. But I will hang on to our Creator. I will pray hard so that He will lead me where I really and trully belong.

i'm back!

I'm still thinking of moving out of Motif or just stay and wait for every thing to fall right to its place.

Things to do and must not neglect!!:

-Red Cross Basic and Advanced Life Support Training
-IVT Training
-GET A LIFE!!!

Thank you Lord, Matthew and I are not sick anymore!=)

number fiasco!!!

i'm still learning how to unravel the Sudoku. It's fun yet also an exercise for the brain.

funny!

one applicant told me that I look like Julia Stiles. Figure it out!

what now?

i just called the National Center for Mental Health and they told me that they don't have any opening for now. That made me upset a bit because i really wanted to be a staff nurse in that institution. Never mind the bad opinions and all those crap (stinky smells and all that), i really don't care. I will have my IVT training on July 29,30,31 and my Red Cross will also follow. But i'm having much hesitations because we don't have any yaya for Matthew. Who will take care of him when Aj and I are not around. This pisses me off because I have to make big adjustments just to be with Matthew but I have no regrets because that's my son. I have to take back the word. Anyway, office sucks too and as much as i don't wanna give a damn care, it will eventually corrupt my state of being. But anyway, I have to leave work as soon as possible to give way to my nursing career. Though pay is not of a luxury compared to other jobs but what i need is more then what money can offer. I have to do something now for my family most especially to Matthew. I want to give him the best future anyone can imagine and also our family to be above than the others. But i am not saying that i will be a selfish bitch in the future, I will help as much as i can to those people who are unfortunate. I am truly a nurse and I know in a partial purpose in my life that I am made to be that way. Sacrifices must really be endured for now for the future promises a bright tomorrow. Thank you lord for the strength and for the power to dream and for making me realize that everyday is an opportunity to change and to excel.

don't throw love away!

chuck, raarrrrr!!!!!!!

coco chanel makes me go loco!!!

i am beautiful

i am lovin' Chuck Bass

i thought i'll stay forever inlove with Nate Archibald but little by little, im finding him as just the boy-next-door type. Then my eyes got focus on Chuck Bass, the rich, rebellious but suave and confident god of Gossip Girl. One of GG trailers got me in awwww when he told Blair that he wants her tobe happy. (The scene where she got caught in the middle of Chuck and Nate). I am looking forward on this scene!!!

hello world!!

"God doesn’t require us to succeed; he only requires that you try."
Mother Teresa

I'll have my IVT Training on July 29, 30, 31!!! Now i'm moving towards my dream. Little by little, I am accomplishing that ladder to my career. Wish me luck world! I am coming out!!!=)

before the year ends...

...and before the neurons of my brain dies, I want to enroll myself in a Basic and Advanced Life Support Course, IVT Training and probably (if possible) study for NCLEX. I haven't got my license from PRC because I am tired after my shift and I'll just sleep the remaining hours than go to Morayta which is a very hot and crowded place. I'm just assured that my license is there and is ready for pick-up. I am sooo lazy that i need an inspiration for me to get goin'. As they say, TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE but I stil don't get the idea of it.

I have to do something now. I have to do this for me, for Matthew and for the betterment of my life.

Back to my mission of "WHAT IS REALLY MY PURPOSE IN LIFE?" f*uck! i still don't know!!! bahala na si Batman!!!!

badtrip!!!

I couldn't access Aj's memory card. In fact, it wouldn't be accessed!!! I have stored a lot of pictures and videos in there including the ones we had last Sunday. Aj, Matthew and I went out last Sunday. First, we went on a Chinese eat-all-you-can at Tramway Graden Restaurant. Then we headed to Trinoma to watch Transformers 2: revenge Of The Fallen but to our shock and dismay, the cinema was so crowded and the lines were super duper long. We went to Timezone instead. Aj played Catcher and we got oursleves a sticker photo. It was the cutest!!!=) Then we went to Eastwood Mall but after finding out that we have to wait for 2 hours to enter the cinema, we opted for Eastwood Cybermall instead. The movie was indeed wonderful. With the tied up works of Steven Speilberg and Michael Bay, their genius minds was made into reality. I'm hoping to have a part 3 of it. Not all villains were killed, they just hide themselves at the end of the story.

That day was our first family day out so I couldn't afford and wouldn't put my feelings into words if ever the memory card won't be accessed forever. I love to think that Matthew is so big now, he is starting to explore the world and a lot of people took notice of him. He is a very charming boy with lots of smiles to share with the world.

Please Lord, i hope I can get the pictures back.

QUEEN B and S

The Venetian Hotel Macao

http://www.venetian.com/

The Venetian Hotel Macao exudes an Italian ambience only found in Asia. The gondola rides sums up to that experience and makes you realize that you are in 2 places at the same time. The hotel was featured in Boys Over Flowers that makes everyone very eager to pack their bags at the very moment and head over to Macao. I wouldn't be emphasizing much on the Venetian. I just have that goal of saving up and taking my whole family to the Las Vegas of Asia, Macao. If only I have the luxury,,,,,,

when can i eat you?

Twister Fries are back!!!

excited (again!)

Aj and I will watch Transformers 2: Revenge Of The Fallen on Friday at Eastwood Mall. Yipeeeee!!!! I'm so excited!!! I think I'll be the last person on earth to watch that movie.

Yesterday, I went swimming. My body didn't hurt but I hunger for more sleep. I am deprived of sleep nowadays.

I just saw someone here in the office with a red hair. Lots of ideas are swirling in my head right now. I want to have my hair cut this minute then another, I want it permed. Haaay... too many ideas causes paranioa!!!

Twister Fries are back!!!=) This time of the month, Mc Donalds decided to bring back Twister Fries. The bad side: I haven't visted any Mc Donald's branch yet...=(

I also want to go to Greenhills to shop for clothes but some are just too generic.

feeling: VERY HUNGWY!!!!

i can eat 10 of this!!!

BUUUUURRPPP!!!

Boyz II Men Live in Manila on July 21, 09

In the span of 3 years of being together, Aj and I haven't watched a single concert. Not that I can recall, even a bit. When he told me that Boyz II Men will be visiting Manila, i knew right then that it's the best time to watch our first ever concert together. Being in a big crowd isn't my thing.I prefer watching in a place like Music Museum instead but why won't I give it a try? I hope that it'll fit our schedule. Anyway, I'm so envious on the people who already watch Transformers 2: Revenge Of The Fallen. When can I squeeze that on my sched?!Tell Me!!! I can't wait to seat on that uber cozy lazy boy and munch on my bottomless popcorn and skies-the-limit iced tea!!! when oh when?!