where are you Ms, Ash Hopeful?

We just came from Matthew's Pediatrician Dra. Solomon. Instead of doing the consultation at her clinic, we had it at her house instead. Her house is one of the best houses i ever set foot on. With trees, grasses and azalaes, what a cozy treat that was! Dra. Solomon's house was like a house based in Beaufort, North Carolina where the story A Walk To Remember was described. It has a front yard that stretches out farther, cute little dogs, a beautiful porch and a very homey ambience. Imagine that, I was green with envy!

Actually, it's not really the house that made me squint with delight but at her age, I want to accomplish not just that kind of lifestyle, but observing her, she is already contented with her life. She told Aj and I that she is a Christian and her family devotes their time praising the Lord. At 51,, I can see how happy she is with her life.

There is a difference with the word "Contentment" and "Satisfaction". Being satisfied is only a feeling for a short period of time while being contented is forever, plus happiness as i may say.

Right now, I have this feeling that my life is not going on that direction of my dreams. But I will hang on to our Creator. I will pray hard so that He will lead me where I really and trully belong.

i'm back!

I'm still thinking of moving out of Motif or just stay and wait for every thing to fall right to its place.

Things to do and must not neglect!!:

-Red Cross Basic and Advanced Life Support Training
-IVT Training
-GET A LIFE!!!

Thank you Lord, Matthew and I are not sick anymore!=)

number fiasco!!!

i'm still learning how to unravel the Sudoku. It's fun yet also an exercise for the brain.

funny!

one applicant told me that I look like Julia Stiles. Figure it out!

what now?

i just called the National Center for Mental Health and they told me that they don't have any opening for now. That made me upset a bit because i really wanted to be a staff nurse in that institution. Never mind the bad opinions and all those crap (stinky smells and all that), i really don't care. I will have my IVT training on July 29,30,31 and my Red Cross will also follow. But i'm having much hesitations because we don't have any yaya for Matthew. Who will take care of him when Aj and I are not around. This pisses me off because I have to make big adjustments just to be with Matthew but I have no regrets because that's my son. I have to take back the word. Anyway, office sucks too and as much as i don't wanna give a damn care, it will eventually corrupt my state of being. But anyway, I have to leave work as soon as possible to give way to my nursing career. Though pay is not of a luxury compared to other jobs but what i need is more then what money can offer. I have to do something now for my family most especially to Matthew. I want to give him the best future anyone can imagine and also our family to be above than the others. But i am not saying that i will be a selfish bitch in the future, I will help as much as i can to those people who are unfortunate. I am truly a nurse and I know in a partial purpose in my life that I am made to be that way. Sacrifices must really be endured for now for the future promises a bright tomorrow. Thank you lord for the strength and for the power to dream and for making me realize that everyday is an opportunity to change and to excel.

don't throw love away!

chuck, raarrrrr!!!!!!!

coco chanel makes me go loco!!!

i am beautiful

i am lovin' Chuck Bass

i thought i'll stay forever inlove with Nate Archibald but little by little, im finding him as just the boy-next-door type. Then my eyes got focus on Chuck Bass, the rich, rebellious but suave and confident god of Gossip Girl. One of GG trailers got me in awwww when he told Blair that he wants her tobe happy. (The scene where she got caught in the middle of Chuck and Nate). I am looking forward on this scene!!!

hello world!!

"God doesn’t require us to succeed; he only requires that you try."
Mother Teresa

I'll have my IVT Training on July 29, 30, 31!!! Now i'm moving towards my dream. Little by little, I am accomplishing that ladder to my career. Wish me luck world! I am coming out!!!=)

before the year ends...

...and before the neurons of my brain dies, I want to enroll myself in a Basic and Advanced Life Support Course, IVT Training and probably (if possible) study for NCLEX. I haven't got my license from PRC because I am tired after my shift and I'll just sleep the remaining hours than go to Morayta which is a very hot and crowded place. I'm just assured that my license is there and is ready for pick-up. I am sooo lazy that i need an inspiration for me to get goin'. As they say, TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE but I stil don't get the idea of it.

I have to do something now. I have to do this for me, for Matthew and for the betterment of my life.

Back to my mission of "WHAT IS REALLY MY PURPOSE IN LIFE?" f*uck! i still don't know!!! bahala na si Batman!!!!

badtrip!!!

I couldn't access Aj's memory card. In fact, it wouldn't be accessed!!! I have stored a lot of pictures and videos in there including the ones we had last Sunday. Aj, Matthew and I went out last Sunday. First, we went on a Chinese eat-all-you-can at Tramway Graden Restaurant. Then we headed to Trinoma to watch Transformers 2: revenge Of The Fallen but to our shock and dismay, the cinema was so crowded and the lines were super duper long. We went to Timezone instead. Aj played Catcher and we got oursleves a sticker photo. It was the cutest!!!=) Then we went to Eastwood Mall but after finding out that we have to wait for 2 hours to enter the cinema, we opted for Eastwood Cybermall instead. The movie was indeed wonderful. With the tied up works of Steven Speilberg and Michael Bay, their genius minds was made into reality. I'm hoping to have a part 3 of it. Not all villains were killed, they just hide themselves at the end of the story.

That day was our first family day out so I couldn't afford and wouldn't put my feelings into words if ever the memory card won't be accessed forever. I love to think that Matthew is so big now, he is starting to explore the world and a lot of people took notice of him. He is a very charming boy with lots of smiles to share with the world.

Please Lord, i hope I can get the pictures back.

QUEEN B and S

The Venetian Hotel Macao

http://www.venetian.com/

The Venetian Hotel Macao exudes an Italian ambience only found in Asia. The gondola rides sums up to that experience and makes you realize that you are in 2 places at the same time. The hotel was featured in Boys Over Flowers that makes everyone very eager to pack their bags at the very moment and head over to Macao. I wouldn't be emphasizing much on the Venetian. I just have that goal of saving up and taking my whole family to the Las Vegas of Asia, Macao. If only I have the luxury,,,,,,

when can i eat you?

Twister Fries are back!!!

excited (again!)

Aj and I will watch Transformers 2: Revenge Of The Fallen on Friday at Eastwood Mall. Yipeeeee!!!! I'm so excited!!! I think I'll be the last person on earth to watch that movie.

Yesterday, I went swimming. My body didn't hurt but I hunger for more sleep. I am deprived of sleep nowadays.

I just saw someone here in the office with a red hair. Lots of ideas are swirling in my head right now. I want to have my hair cut this minute then another, I want it permed. Haaay... too many ideas causes paranioa!!!

Twister Fries are back!!!=) This time of the month, Mc Donalds decided to bring back Twister Fries. The bad side: I haven't visted any Mc Donald's branch yet...=(

I also want to go to Greenhills to shop for clothes but some are just too generic.